Category: Dispatches

  • Day 10938

    I’ve been sober for over two weeks now, without many cravings and always being vigilant, so I’ll stop publicly counting the days now. It gets boring. I really need to establish some kind of daily routine. Doing things over and over again at the same time of day, so I don’t need to spend so […]

  • Day 10937

    Sober for 14 days. Yesterday I didn’t smoke during the day but then I got really bored at around 8pm and lit one up, and I kept smoking throughout the night. Staying sober while watching the people around you trashing themselves is a bit depressing. Drinking has lost a lot of its appeal to me. […]

  • Day 10936

    Sober for 13 days. Smoke free for zero days. Being sober amidst drunks can be really awful. Didn’t enjoy myself much last night, except that I bumped into an acquaintance who I really enjoy bumping into, because she is staggeringly pretty and sexy and radiates a really positive energy. She hung out with me and […]

  • Day 10935

    I’ve been sober for twelve days! Yesterday I finally snapped out of it and did some house cleaning. My mom, who’s staying with me at the moment, was pleasantly surprised and couldn’t help but help me. After that I was going to get a haircut, only to end up in front of closed doors and […]

  • Day 10934

    I think I’ve been messing up my headings lately. They’re one day behind. Anyway, I’ve been sober for eleven days. I feel almost normal (as in healthy) again. Yesterday I smoked a few cigarettes in the evening, which I’m not too happy about, but at least I don’t seem to have physical cravings anymore. I’m […]

  • Day 10932

    I’ve been sober for ten days. I still have the cold, but I think I feel better than yesterday. My GP prescribed me something that turns out to be highly dosed Aspirin with vitamin C. I still haven’t got out of my rut. But soon I’ll have to, because I’ll be running out of money […]

  • Day 10931

    I’ve been sober for nine days. I have a cold and I feel weak and grumpy. I’ve been smoking an average of five cigarettes per day over the last three days. I doubt I’ll smoke anything today. I work out almost every day. Today I won’t. I’m lazy. It’s really hard to get myself to […]

  • Day 10929

    I’ve been sober for seven days. I’m beginning to enjoy waking up in the morning and not feeling sick. Yesterday I went to a bar late at night, met some friends and had a couple of non-alcoholic beers. Didn’t like the taste too much, so I’ll probably make Schweppes my ordinary go-to beverage from now […]

  • Day 10928

    I’ve been sober for 6 days. I feel great. Yesterday I did Yoga in the morning. That’s a first. Broke a real sweat. Later I had a lovely evening out in Vienna with friends, watching a Werner Herzog film and then going to Flanagan’s in the first district. Instead of beer and Scotch I had […]

  • Day 10927

    I’ve been sober for five days. I’ve decided to quit drinking for good, because for me the nice things about it don’t justify the bad things, the constant fatigue due to hangovers being the worst, because it kept me from living a productive life and being a reliable friend. And this is really all I […]