Off the line


I’ve spent all day distracting myself by surfing the web instead of running unpleasant but important errands concering my mother’s recent and sudden death. Then, in a moment of clarity, I unplugged my modem. I am offline right now, and if I feel the urge to look something up on the web, I need to walk downstairs and plug my modem back in and wait for a couple of minutes or so till the Internet connection is reestablished. This, I thought, would be enough of a hurdle to stop me right in my tracks and make me reevaluate the importance of the thing that I’d like to look up.
So far it is working. The thing that disturbs me, though, is how often I’ve already wanted to look up some thing in the past hour or so, and none of it was important enough to make me go through the hassle of going online.
Often, the first thing I do in the morning is to turn on my laptop while still lying in bed and peruse Hacker News. It usually takes me about an hour, then, to jerk myself away from the screen and start becoming a human being. I realize that this is a very bad habit, and I want to shake it.
When I wake up tomorrow, I will have no means to peruse Hacker News, Google Reader, Reddit, or any of the other stuff that fills my head with bullshit in the morning. Instead, I will crawl out of bed, have a coffee, work out, take a shower, get dressed, and kick ass for the rest of the day.
I hope.