I’ve been sober for over two weeks now, without many cravings and always being vigilant, so I’ll stop publicly counting the days now. It gets boring.
I really need to establish some kind of daily routine. Doing things over and over again at the same time of day, so I don’t need to spend so much energy on deciding what to do from one moment to the next. I tend to get lost in petty activities otherwise. At the moment I feel like I’m going nowhere fast.
Yesterday I made good progress with my new website. Made a design in Photoshop and wrote the HTML and CSS. I’m pleased with how it looks. Next up is some Javascript magic and more content. The text I wrote about my passion for software development needs some editing though. I like it, but I think it’s too long.
I’m on my way to get my shit together, but I’m not pleased with the pace of my progress. I still have problems dealing with tedious but important stuff. I’ve had enough of letting things slide till they become a big and urgent problem before I do anything about them. That’s not a way to lead a pleasant life.
On a more encouraging note, I tend to not beat myself up over stuff as much as I used to. I’ve developed a habit of talking back to my inner voice when it tries to put me down. I try to respect myself no matter what, because everybody deserves respect and dignity, no matter what.
I’m going to draft a daily routine now. Set up some ground rules about watching TV and reading blogs, because I’ve kind of lost control over those things.
Addictive personality type. Such a vague but fitting term.