Month: June 2012

  • Day 10787

    My dad passed away last night. He was 26378 days old. I will miss him very much.

  • Day 3 of living life

    The cancer has spread to his lungs. He can barely breath anymore. There’s no hope left. He will soon be gone. He’s the most important person in my life, and I’m so scared of losing him. Dad, I love you so much.

  • Day 2 of living more consciously

    I’m on the train to Mattersburg. My dad wants me to fetch him some things and bring them to the hospital. He’s been transfered from Wiener Neustadt to Vienna. The hospital is old and in the process of being renovated. Not a pretty sight to begin with, the naked grey walls—that would otherwise be painted […]

  • Day 1 of living more consciously

    Fell asleep between 10:00 and 10:30 yesterday. Got up at 6 in the morning, well rested. Took the commuter’s train to Vienna, changed pants at the apartment and went to work. Had no time to meditate, but will do in the evening. I waited till around 1 pm to eat something. There were a couple […]

  • A Simple Life Change

    In the last couple of weeks I have let bad habits slip back into my life again, which has syphoned too much energy from me. My being tired keeps me from doing things that are important to me, which in turn feeds into my fears and self-loathing. I want the things I do to be […]